Broken

This is a difficult post for me to make, but I want to ensure that everyone who cares about what's going on in my life has the opportunity to know. For those who don't already know, Starr and I have separated and are starting the process of a divorce. This has come as a shock to most people that we have told so far.

I'm not going to get into all the details, and if you want Starr's perspective, you can read her blog post about it. What I will say is that we have had major problems prior to this; we just never fought or showed others what was going on in our private lives (hence the private part). We had a long discussion approximately 16 months ago and tried to work on things, but nothing has really changed.

You need to understand that this is my decision, not Starr's. She doesn't want this. Also she isn't to blame for this happening. I don't know if you might judge me or us, and I honestly don't care. I have thought about and come to terms with all of the possible negative repercussions of my actions. This is not a decision that I have made lightly. I have never been a fan of divorce. However, I believe that this is for the best. It may not seem like it to others, but it is my decision.

I have gotten an apartment close to where I work and am trying to figure out what will happen next. This has been a stressful time for both of us. I know that I haven't been talking to many people about what's going on. I really just wanted to explain as few times as possible. I hope to retain the friendships that I have had the opportunity to develop. I will move forward with my life and the person that I am, always believing that I've made the best decision for everyone. My hope is that I will be approached with an attitude of love and understanding. However, I do not need anyone's approval to live a happy life. For the first time in about 15 years, this really is the truth. Thank you to everyone who loves me no matter what decisions I make for my life.